หมดแพชชั่นในการเรียน
หมดแพชชั่นในการเรียน: Lost my Passion for Education
MoNoRi-Chan's journey through education in the US was a rollercoaster of challenges and setbacks. The year he decided to restart his education coincided with the arrival of the devastating COVID-19 pandemic, forcing him into the world of online learning. It was a tough adjustment, but he persevered, determined to make the most of his educational opportunities...
| Disclaimer: | The story depicted in this narrative is based on real-life experiences encountered by the author. However, the characters and events have been fictionalized and portrayed through the character named MoNoRi-Chan. While inspired by true events, certain elements of the story may have been modified or embellished for narrative purposes. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or deceased, or to real-life events is purely coincidental. The intention of this storytelling is to entertain and engage readers, rather than provide an entirely accurate account of the author's experiences. |
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Chapter 1: Definition
Definition of Burnout in Education:
- Burnout in the context of education refers to a state of physical, emotional, and mental exhaustion resulting from prolonged exposure to stress and excessive workload within the educational system.
- It is characterized by feelings of detachment, cynicism, and a reduced sense of personal accomplishment.
Factors Contributing to Burnout
- Time Management: Juggling multiple responsibilities, such as work, family, and academic commitments, can lead to overwhelming time constraints and a sense of being stretched too thin.
- Starting Over: MoNoRi-Chan's experience of having to start his education from scratch in a new country while his friends have already completed their studies and established careers created additional pressure and feelings of being left behind.
- Financial Burdens: The financial strain of pursuing education, including tuition fees, living expenses, and professional evaluation costs, can add stress and impact one's motivation.
Challenges Faced by MoNoRi-Chan
- Adjusting to a New Environment: Adapting to a different education system, cultural norms, and language barriers posed significant challenges for MoNoRi-Chan, leading to a sense of disorientation and isolation.
- Lack of Recognition: The US education system's failure to honor MoNoRi-Chan's previous achievements and require him to start his education afresh created a sense of frustration and a loss of motivation.
- Comparison and Expectations: Comparing oneself to peers who have already achieved milestones in their education or careers can intensify feelings of inadequacy and contribute to burnout.
Impact of Burnout on Passion for Education
- Deteriorating Passion: The accumulation of external pressures and challenges can gradually erode one's passion for education, leading to a loss of motivation and interest in the learning process.
- Emotional Exhaustion: Burnout can result in emotional exhaustion, making it difficult to find joy and fulfillment in the educational journey.
- Long-Term Consequences: If not addressed, burnout can have lasting effects on one's educational and career aspirations, contributing to a sense of disillusionment and discouragement.
In the following chapters, we will explore MoNoRi-Chan's specific experiences and how various factors influenced his journey, ultimately leading to a state of burnout and a reevaluation of his educational path....
Chapter 2: Starting from Zero
Transcript Evaluation and Unexpected Results
- Before enrolling in the US education system, MoNoRi-Chan was required to submit his transcript from his previous university in Thailand for professional evaluation.
- The evaluation process came at a cost of $220, diverting funds that could have been buying a Bitcoin dip, a missed opportunity that added to his frustration.
- Unfortunately, the results of the evaluation did not meet MoNoRi-Chan's expectations, as the US education system did not fully recognize or honor his hard work and academic achievements from his previous university.
- This setback forced him to start his educational journey anew, despite his prior knowledge and qualifications.
Nonresident Status and Tuition Concerns
- Upon arrival in the US, MoNoRi-Chan found himself classified as a nonresident by California's board of education, leading to the imposition of higher nonresident tuition fees.
- Reluctant to pay exorbitant fees for courses that covered subjects he was already familiar with, such as Java programming, he made the decision to delay his enrollment and seek alternative learning opportunities.
Impact of the COVID-19 Pandemic
- Like many families, MoNoRi-Chan's family was also impacted by the COVID-19 pandemic.
- His mother lost her job for the first half of the year 2020, adding financial strain and uncertainty to their lives.
- MoNoRi-Chan did not get the Federal Unemployment Benefits because he had no taxable income.
- The college responded to the pandemic by transitioning to online-only classes, providing MoNoRi-Chan with the flexibility to study from home.
- This adjustment, although challenging in some aspects, allowed him to maximize his time and focus on his studies, resulting in academic success and achieving A grades in Math classes during the first year.
Financial Aid Support
- In the early months of 2020, MoNoRi-Chan was able to access financial aid and government support, which included the State of California covering his tuition fees.
- This financial assistance reignited his passion for education, as the motivation of monetary gain fueled his dedication and commitment to his studies.
- With the money printed by the Government, he used it to buy his first ThinkPad and got into Cryptocurrencies
With his educational journey underway once again, MoNoRi-Chan faced a variety of new challenges and experiences in the subsequent years. Chapter 3 will delve into the events of 2021-22, where the delicate balance between work, personal life, and education proved to be overwhelming, leading to significant setbacks and a sense of burnout.
Chapter 3: The Year of Change
Vaccination and New Job Opportunities
- As the CDC authorized Pfizer and Moderna vaccines for Emergency Use Authorization (EUA), MoNoRi-Chan wasted no time in getting vaccinated on the first day the vaccines became available to normal residents aged 18 and older.
- Following his birthday, a serendipitous encounter occurred when an employee at his favorite Thai restaurant inquired about his vaccination status. Upon learning that MoNoRi-Chan was fully vaccinated, the employee presented an unexpected job opportunity in the "cannabis business."
- Expecting to แพ๊คกัญชา, MoNoRi-Chan instead find himself offered a position as a Digital Media Producer at GTV Company, a prominent player in the cannabis industry. Excited by the prospect of a new venture, he accepted the position and officially became an employee with a W-2.
The Overwhelming Work Environment
- Initially, the job at GTV Company appeared promising, and during the first two months, MoNoRi-Chan successfully passed the probation period. However, he soon discovered that the demanding work schedule of six days a week, combined with the chatty employees and a scrutinizing boss, took a toll on his well-being.
- Doubts began to creep in as he questioned his place within the company. He wondered if he was merely a cog in the machine, diligently ensuring smooth operations but with his efforts going unappreciated.
- With the demanding work schedule leaving him little time for himself, MoNoRi-Chan struggled to find a balance between work, rest, and personal development. Sundays became his sole respite, a day devoted to rest and recuperation before diving back into the demanding workweek on Mondays.
- The relentless work schedule left him with minimal time and energy to keep up with his educational commitments, causing his interest in education to wane further.
As MoNoRi-Chan continued to navigate the challenges of his new job and the diminishing passion for education, he found himself at a crossroads. Would he be able to reconcile the demands of his work and personal life, or would the overwhelming nature of his current situation push him to reevaluate his priorities? Chapter 4 will delve deeper into the consequences of his choices and the ensuing path he embarked upon...
Chapter 4: Burning Out and Finding new Passion
Deteriorating Mental Health and Pursuit of Passion
- The poor academic performance and inconsistent sleep schedule took a severe toll on MoNoRi-Chan's mental health. Realizing the urgency of the situation, he made the decision to take a break from both work and education in April of 2022. Seeking solace and a fresh start, he flew back to Thailand to assist his friend Igq in opening a newly legalized cannabis dispensary.
- Fueled with renewed passion, MoNoRi-Chan dedicated himself to the venture. However, despite his efforts, he found himself in a familiar pattern where his contributions went unnoticed and underappreciated. Complicating matters, he developed feelings for the judgmental boss's son, but the affection was not reciprocated.
- On top of these challenges, MoNoRi-Chan faced the heavy responsibility of caring for his father-figure who was battling terminal prostate cancer. As the weight of his obligations intensified, he made the difficult decision to leave the company by August 2022 and returned to Thailand. In the process, he dedicated his time to upgrading Igq's shop, but his focus on education began to waver.
The Struggle to Regain Motivation
- Upon returning to the US in December 2022, MoNoRi-Chan encountered a significant hurdle. Due to changes in his circumstances, he no longer had access to financial aid to support his education. Despite his attempts to appeal the decision, highlighting his caregiving responsibilities, the system proved inflexible and devoid of empathy. The lack of support and motivation led him to ultimately withdraw from college.
- Disillusioned and disheartened by his experiences, MoNoRi-Chan found himself at a crossroads. The once burning passion for education had dimmed, and the pursuit of a different path seemed more appealing. With financial aid no longer fueling his motivation, he faced the daunting reality of becoming a NEET (Not in Education, Employment, or Training) not by choice, but by circumstance.
Chapter 4 marks a turning point in MoNoRi-Chan's journey, where he must grapple with the consequences of burnout, unappreciated efforts, and a dwindling passion for education. As he explores new avenues and searches for a renewed sense of purpose, the question remains: Will he be able to find his way and regain the drive to pursue a fulfilling future? Chapter 5 will unveil the next chapter of his story, revealing the challenges and opportunities that lie ahead.
Chapter 5: Conclusion and Reflection
- MoNoRi-Chan's decision to discontinue pursuing higher education
- The emotional and psychological toll of the experiences described
- Call for reform and improvement in the education system to better support students' individual circumstances and challenges
Please note that the content of each chapter would need to be developed further with relevant information and details.
